Cut
I opened my eyes
I stared out to the sky
I’ll lay
In bed
The plates in my sink
Dust layers are building
I’ll first fix
My head
The texts my friends left for me
Get up, there are lots to see
But I like
My blindfold on
Hit my foot on the table edge
Gave me bruises on my leg
Then sleep it off
Til the purple’s gone
Run the same three thoughts in my head
Okay the same three songs while in bed
Recall how
It began
Grow my hair, I won’t cut it
My old habits, no point changing it
Lost my hopes
Lost my plans
Window’s broken, not again
Glass shattered from the pane
Can the pieces
Hurt my hands
Walk outside in the dark
Hearing bats in the park
See tides leave
The water side
If I scream out loud
Will the waves drown my sound
Will the moon
Care if I cried
I could climb out of my state of mind
Draw a smile, say it is all fine
Rewind
To better days
But a car that’s not broken
No one will try to fix them
So I build
My cave to stay
And I remain
And I don’t change
And eventually
I’ll be picked up by the waves and go away